Despite Diddy throwing an epic birthday party where A-listers, including Beyoncé, Jay-Z, Mary J. Blige, Taraji P. Henson along with 600 other guests attended, the rapper himself said the party almost didn’t happen.
“I canceled the party two times because I just couldn’t see myself partying for my 50th birthday without her,” Combs told People magazine, referring to his ex-girlfriend and the mother of his children, Kim Porter.
The late model and actress died on Nov. 15, 2018 due to pneumonia. Porter and Diddy shared 12-year-old twin daughters, D’Lila Star Combs and Jessie James Combs, along with a 21-year-old son Christian Combs. Together, they also raised 13-year-old Chance Combs, Diddy’s daughter with stylist Sarah Chapman, Porter’s son with singer Al B. Sure!, 28-year-old Quincy Brown, and Diddy’s son with celebrity stylist Misa Hylton Brim, 25-year-old Justin Combs.
Diddy admitted that on his actual birthday, Nov. 4, he “wasn’t feeling it.”
“I didn’t want to be fake,” he said of celebrating his milestone birthday. “I wanted to be at a point of strength.”
So instead the music mogul celebrated with a understated dinner.
Diddy got the idea to throw one of his epic birthday parties once Porter’s birthday weekend approached this month. The model and actress would’ve turned 49 this year.
“I thought, ‘I can have a party with Kim and we can party together,’” he explained. “It worked out beautifully.”
“It was probably one of the most authentic nights of love that I ever experienced. I’m blessed,” the former ESSENCE cover star added.